The alienation of sudden death tends to warp the mind of the recently departed. The desire for the life they lost is heartbreaking, maddening even.
Acts Of Ego
I have laughed in intense horror. I have laughed in incredible shame and pain. I came to this point because in my youth I spent a great deal of time in tears. I came to grieve so deeply that I could not grieve any further. I could not see my grief as real.
I would not say that ego is the source of suffering. I would say that in fact anyone who suffers from ego hasn’t been egotistical enough.
Where does the ego lead us if we aren’t afraid of it? First it leads us to give value to our own experiences. Is this error? Then ego leads us to compare our experiences to others. Is this error?
It can be I think. It might negate your experiences as being of value? It’s an opportunity for error, yes.
Ego tells you your truth is the way. It tells you to stop learning, listening, walking the path? Actually, ego tells you to walk the path, but people want only one ego. They are taught to seek one thing. There is another option.
You can come to see the acts of ego in the world. See very clearly the causes you create, and that in fact anything you are aware of you are also cause of. You can identify with the causal spirit in yourself, and if you do, you come to see that any presence is a causal spirit and you are not alone. But not if you are unwilling to identify.
But ego can lead you further. They say that doctors “play god”, but they are chastised for playing god as are truly innovative scientists who generally don’t want to stop their seeking at the things that cause harm. They are stopped by people who insist on limits. That they must produce. What if being stuck in the doorway, we allowed identification with the gods? Saw all spirits that are present in the world as our self? Could the stagnant poisons of science or bureaucracy cause us this suffering for any length of time? Could any of our potentials become impediments?
No one can cause us to suffer. We have the choice to not give them power over us. Indeed, but where is their room for judgment of the ego? How is the ego actually a mistake?
When it feels wrong. Yes, and we get that feeling from self. The atman that is one with the all encompassing. We were not shackled with ego. We were gifted with it. So when ego leads us to moments of sloth, who are we to judge?
Your thoughts are welcome. Be well friends.