I don’t put much stock and feelings in what you ‘should’ feel. According to those who say what I should feel, I should be a mass murderer, but I’m not.
The difference between psionics versus magick is like Taoism versus Buddhism. In magick, you recognize the interplay of energies in the environment and come to see how you are a part of them and can affect them. Sort of an intuitive science. In psionics, you recognize the play of forces within you and gain control of them and how they affect you and your environment. So one is an internal focus and the other an external focus. Both anchored in the mind, but the process is very different even if the outcome can be the same.
Magick is akin to what I call channelling. In all things there is action/reaction, but there is always a third point. Action and reaction merge in a recognizable dynamic flow of energy. Normally, magick is understood by a process of intuitive insight structured into a linguistic framework. This is in part why many spell casters are often big fans of neuro linguistic programming (NLP) and they don’t internalize the external forces. They just create the link to interact, so they stay removed from it. They are the people working magic.
For some it works differently. The “spirits” that magick often seeks to interact with embody the energies of the system. They are often called elementals and though they normally have elemental concerns, every so often their awareness broadens and they react to things they normally wouldn’t. Like people and psychic disturbances. This is why places of frequent death often seem to be more paranormally active in general, if not haunted. This is why deserts have the mystique as well as swamps and mountains. The elementals there have a broader awareness. Normally even in the more active areas it’s just some disturbance that then settles, but if the balance of an eco-system goes too off baseline the spirits remain disturbed. Hence the violent disturbances in weather among other things.
In the past, there were two classes of people who dealt with these matters. More commonly known were intuitive men and women who applied the wisdom of their intuitive observations to how their people were living. But in every world mythology there is another class of human being spoken of. In Biblical legend, the Nephilim. In Egyptian, the Pharonic lines. In Chinese, the Imperial Royal lines. These people are born different. Believed to be born of supernatural influence who seem “inhuman”. ‘Merlin’ was a western example and they tend to favour forces other than human will. There was also believed to be some cross-over. Methuselah from the Bible. The Celtic dragon kings. The Chinese immortals who were of humanity but somehow transcended it. The cross over affected their thinking and behaviour. Made it come to full fruition. They were the paragons of humanity. Fully manifesting humanities potential power to join the bigger spiritual community as peers. To achieve a stage of both union and individuation that allows true autonomy.
Your thoughts are welcome. Be well friends.