Live your life. I said live it! Live it, or I will give you a dirty look I swear…as everyone wanders off ignoring the crazy person.
I lost my father tragically, and his spirit was very intense and there in the house a long time. In the fullness of a life, the course of a life fully lived, the body fails not from a loss of energy, but from having grown in energy beyond the bodies capacity to house. So it really must shift for the well being of that soul, if for no other reason. But a single soul is and always has been enough reason.
He shot himself a few feet away from me to release himself from his body? No, and perhaps yes. I am unaware of what spiritual pressures may have been affecting him, but they will resolve. That’s the only sin of the suicide, and by sin I mean mistake. Often they rationalize that they will not be held responsible for whatever they sought to escape.
The truth is they will not be punished. There is no punishment, but cause and effect is universal. I hope this statement doesn’t offend. It’s not my purpose for making it. There are “rules” (for lack of a better term) that exist for the betterment of all souls.
Often the most traumatic realization for a suicide is that we are all equal. They come to see that very clearly and often didn’t believe it in life. Your place is equal to my place, and your place is our place, there and here. Though it’s recognized that this existence is very challenging. Do you feel truth in this?
But it’s also so beautiful and so full of joy. It is. I wished he could have known that too. It would have been easier here, but he sees it there. I won’t go into what I’m feeling right now. I will just say (and you can dismiss this), that I feel a great sense of fondness regarding you, and my experience has come to show me this is not mine. Also, a subtle sense of regret, but healed. I may be speaking nonsense, take it how you will.
Thank you. He did care for me greatly. I tried very hard to give him the will to live, but not my choice. It wasn’t something you could do, or something he could do.
I will excuse myself now. I get very uncomfortable at these times.
Your thoughts are welcome. Be well friends.