The slayer who thinks he slays is slain.
I wonder if insane is the opposite to peace? Yes, ultimately insane is the opposite of peace. Though we call much that is insane, sane. Much that is unreal, real. The insanity is pretty deeply rooted.
Should we embrace insanity when we have established that it is what we reject that makes us weak? Strange, but yes. What makes it insanity is not the information or forces behind it, it’s the ignorance.
I am still stuck at the beginning in finding personal acceptance, especially when there are so many expectations from others. Simple truth in your case. You cannot give what you do not have. You have to let yourself have it in order to share it. Example; the lustful person who denies they are leaches away peoples energy. The lustful person who accepts they are brings a new life to their encounters. One can be monogamous and lustful. They feed that vibrancy and engagement in the other. Who knew lust could do that, eh? You aren’t just making rules for you. Your rules teach people how to treat you. So the rule you have for yourself will often be the rule of your dealings with others. If your rule is no receiving, then you do forbid receiving in others.
Is thinking the opposite of peace? Actually no, you can be peacefully thinking. The difference being if you think you’re making yourself think. That you have to “do” thinking and then twist things in circles. If you have to do thinking then thinking is the opposite of peace. Your thinking is like your breathing. It happens. This is why I have such issue with some of these pseudo eastern groups. They seem to imply you can find peace by emptying your head. You can maybe find quiet, but you can by emptying your lungs too. Get real quiet and they call that death.
Remove the debris. The debris goes when you let your thinking go. You don’t have to be gripping your brain in thought. It works like it works. People say I think all the time. I say it. It’s true. I don’t “do” thought. Thinking can be very peaceful, even playful, and downright fun. It can be helpful to look at your thoughts like children, sailing the ocean of daydreams. Just because a thought occurs to you, so what? Just because you can hold your breath, does it mean you need to?
If you can accept yourself the ‘so what’ is easier? Yes, and here is a perhaps surprising truth. Accepting yourself has nothing to do with your thoughts, not any specific one.
Where do you see it is, if not in thoughts? There is a level of awareness that comes first. Have you ever given someone a hug just because you felt like it for no rational reason? I can nearly drown someone in affection. I don’t have a reason. I just do it. It’s my nature. I also get “angry”, though perhaps not like others do. And because I can get angry for no reason, I can move with it and beyond it just because I can. Because there doesn’t have to be a reason. I don’t have to justify it. I just get angry, then I get ok. Very simple and no great weight on me.
Your thoughts are welcome. Be well friends.