I don’t put much stock and feelings in what you ‘should’ feel. According to those who say what I should feel, I should be a mass murderer, but I’m not.
The idea that our consciousness works on a dynamic of seeking pleasure and avoiding pain is the second delusion. People believe that life is about choices, and although this makes thinking easier, it quickly becomes an obsession to the point that they think life or death is a choice.
The more choices we have, the less freedom we have? Exactly. Your base consciousness has only one drive, to live. There is no life and death, success and failure, none of this. This is why they say hope springs eternal. The life force won’t accept anything other than life, painful or pleasurable, and it will not accept stagnation. This is why for as long as you live, you will always engage in activity.
What is the force when its not inside a soul? It just waits for another? This force is the womb of souls. It is the well of souls. All of our souls well up from this force, and the source springs eternal. Though the exact form that any soul inhabits will change in the cycle of eternity.
The will of God is to live. Ultimately, God is love, and everything you think and do and feel is love. Even if you think you hate it, the life force is love.
The meaning of life is to live then? Indeed.
Now, I am not using the term love in the light and airy ethereal sense. The force of base consciousness doesn’t care that you want to transcend it, or that you consider things that it gives rise to as unspiritual or ignoble. This is why when you are deeply and powerfully depressed, you will hurt yourself. Because the life force or base consciousness loves everything, and everything you do comes from your love which has nothing to do with what you think you like. Love is both liberator and tyrant. How it seems depends on the clarity of your perception.
Every human God has been love. Even the darkest and most hateful seeming. They all represent humanities loves. But the ideas and beliefs about them, the practices and creeds that grew up around them, these became diluted and deluded. People cut themselves off from the Gods by trying to please the Gods. If God has seemed unreachable in your life there is a reason. It’s because you have been spurning life in favour of your thinking, your sickened imaginings.
Enough of the rant.
Your thoughts are welcome. Be well friends.