Synthesis is an interesting experience. I enjoy tasting blue.
I have experienced a spiritual state. A variety of issues sort of gave me no choice. I used to suffer seizures, irregular theta waves. Those are what make you “unconscious” or at rest, but it wasn’t the sleep cycle. I wasn’t asleep. I was sort of scared, not even aware of my body. I experienced a shift in my time awareness. It sort of dilated and contracted at the same time. Sort off ceased having any meaning. Like everything was happening at once and yet I saw nothing change. I can trigger it at will, though force of habit has been a big stumbling block for me cultivating it. I can induce sleep at will, control my heart rate, respiration metabolism, the whole mess.
I have been diagnosed as having “aspergers” syndrome. Supposedly it means I have less emotive activity. My experience is otherwise. I think that needs more research, really. The violent outburst autistics have from time to time is no mystery to me. I feel the cycle. Those who know me best know I am intense, even violently emotional. It triggers the regulatory response. Thus, though I experience powerful emotion my behaviour seems subdued. The principle forces you to embrace the life dynamic. That massive activation of your systems forces a partial shut off. Like spinning a top, it balances you, but it can’t keep going. There is a point where you become, let’s say, “outside yourself”. You just can’t relate to your body, another body, or your environment in the same way.
Now imagine being able to draw that out and act in that state? What do you think would happen? Due to the quality of current sources of “spiritual” guidance, I’m afraid it really can only be learned by experience. Sort of like Zen, which is very supportive of a more relaxed exploration of that state, by the way.
Do you think it could be explored, recorded and shared more practically than it has been? That is part of my personal ambition. Does it need any trappings at all? Yes, the symbols sort of help guide the intuition, the rites, the practiced, but could it be more simple still? Only focused awareness brings clear experience. Only experience brings knowing and knowing happens before thoughts. People lose knowing in thought. They look at thought and say that is what I act on so it is right. Mistaken idea.
Until next time friends, find that inner rest state that still points inside of you.
Your thoughts are welcome. Be well friends.