In My Humble Opinion (con't)


Okay Struggle

There’s always got to be a struggle. Sure. What else is there? That’s what life is made of. I don’t know anything else, do you? I mean if there is, tell me about it. Van Morrison

What I’m Hanging Hope On Today: When I was young, I remember that even the most simple moments of dealing with other people were very much a struggle. It always seemed like everyone else was on a clock that not only couldn’t I see, but I could never catch up with either. It’s like being permanently jet lagged or something. As much as life seems to move at blinding speed, well, that’s the issue, it seems to blind people.

I’m coming to appreciate that my different sense of time and flow often allow me to arrive at insights and phases of growth in my life that seem to take others years or most of a life time to arrive at. I still get anxious sometimes that life is passing me by, but all in all I think that the schedule many live by is an unnecessary burden if not an erroneous notion all together.

In the end, don’t we all accomplish things when we finally get around to it? Can anyone succeed before they’re ready to? I don’t see this happening in our world, and I think it’s ultimately better to keep our sense of orientation, focus and integrity than to worry about some abstract to-do list that somehow supposedly adds up to a life well lived.

It’s gonna be okay. What do you say?

Travis Saunders
Dragon Intuitive

Okay Days

There are good days and there are bad days, and this is one of them. Lawrence Welk

What I’m Hanging Hope On Today: Each day I wake up and notice how I feel. Every morning that state seems sort of random. Don’t get me wrong, there is some degree of continuity between one day and another. That morning feeling just seems to depend on much more than my choices, attitudes and activities.

I take a deep breath and get out of bed, and as I go down stairs, I take in much more information than just my thoughts and plans for the day. So do you, I think. My mind flits from image to image, and sensation to sensation, not unlike a busy bee perhaps, and somehow manages to pull this all together into an experience of the world that day. At least what I think I am experiencing. Perhaps that’s the reason my morning state seems so arbitrary. A great many of my judgments are derived from opinions I have been socially conditioned to accept and the greater mass of those are even self-contradictory. Something is good in one circumstance and bad in another. The next thing is really impressive if you’re one age and beneath notice if you’re another.

Perhaps there is another way of looking at things, one that draws more from our true nature and the world around us and less from the social phantasm we all live in. Be and be good at it is what I say.

It’s gonna be okay. What do you say?

Travis Saunders
Dragon Intuitive

My Two Cents IMHO

I only go out to get me a fresh appetite for being alone. Lord Byron

Why People Are Like That Today: Sense. Make sense, people say. We live in a world dominated by sense. The sense of this, a sense of that. A sense of worth and a sense of place. Hell, even a sense of a places worth. It all makes sense, which means there’s a price tag on everything. Yes, you as well.

Everything has to add up on a ledger in a way that makes “the best of the best” pleased with the bottom line. If not… Well, then certainly they are entitled to take “legal” action, aren’t they? After all, really they are the only ones who have any cents… Oops, I meant sense.

Without knowing the value of things, where would we be? What excuse would there be for doing all those miserable things we don’t want to do? What about all those miserable roles no one wants to assume? Wait a minute… People love to assume anything and everything. Now it all makes sense. Now we all have a reason for making cents, or being the reason someone else makes cents.

Have I earned my two cents worth? Off to nickel and dime the next person… muahaha.

In My Humble Opinion. What’s yours?

Travis Saunders
Dragon Intuitive

Illness Dysfunction

The statistics on sanity are that one out of every four Americans is suffering from some form of mental illness. Think of your three best friends. If they’re okay, then it’s you. Rita Mae Brown

Why I Am Dysfunctional Today: Illness… How many people really feel well these days? Everyone seems to have something to complain about. It’s even spawned a whole genre of music, more than one really.

Where is the world when people are so in love with their pain? They praise concepts like being “down to earth” or “in touch with reality” all the while instead of drowning our sorrows, we instead drown in our sorrows, and “the light of day” has nothing to do with anything. The truth is, even those who do seem to successfully drown their sorrows are still pursuing behavior that’s dictated by their pain. We freely, even enthusiastically poison our bodies to escape this. Is it any wonder we poison the earth also?

Truth is stranger than fiction. Reality is stronger than our reactions to it. How can anyone find ease or relief of suffering if they don’t have the courage to face a reality that has almost nothing to do with our opinions about it? We have been living our lives trying to fix problems only we see.

They say that in the land of the blind, the one eyed man is king. Who can distinguish the crazy from the sane, honestly?

That‘s my dysfunctional self. What’s yours?

Travis Saunders
Dragon Intuitive

Live Our Lives IMHO

The world is populated in the main by people who should not exist. George Bernard Shaw

Why People Are Like That Today: What’s the point? People ask that question frequently and with varying degrees of bitterness. The answer, of course, is simple. There is no point. There are no exceptions. There really is no point.

That being said, we’re all still here, aren’t we? Accepting that, we see clearly that there is a place to be at, and what that experience is like has a lot to do with how we behave.

To date, a great many people have been laboring under the delusion that there is some point to all of us being here, and since nature hasn’t provided that, then by god or science, they will put one in its place. Heaven forbid that we all just be present and live our lives! Yet, heaven does no such thing. Science and progress ask us if we are finished with that (our lives), and since we weren’t using them for anything, they claim that certainly they are entitled to.

Are we having fun yet? Why not? Perhaps it’s because we trade our experience of life for lives of experience lead for no other reason than to get to the point.

Are we there yet? Where are we? Does anyone know? Oh, ick! I think I stepped in human being! Someone get them off…

In My Humble Opinion. What’s yours?

Travis Saunders
Dragon Intuitive

Avoidance Dysfunction

I found my inner bitch and ran with her. Courtney Love

Why I Am Dysfunctional Today: Most of what we try to avoid is also what has the most meaning for us.

People generally think that things have the meaning they decide it has. This is just another in a large collection of commonly held half-truths. Experiences and ideas have meaning to the degree that we have feelings about them. It isn’t true that we feel what we think, rather the truth is that we think what we feel.

At heart, at the core of our beings, we are the horrible things we fear we are. At heart, I’m a weak willed coward who could self-destruct at any moment. I go about my life agreeing with everybody I talk to most of the time, and offering additional information from my own point of view just in case they might also agree with me. Petulant and spineless perhaps?

What I find most meaningful in my life is the way human interaction and collective behavior gives rise to world changing shifts that are greater than any of the individuals involved could have accomplished. No matter what I do, I can’t escape a sense of awe at the vast power of the will and the grand expanse of personal perspectives.

Guess I should be honest and go inspire change, huh?

That‘s my dysfunctional self. What’s yours?

Travis Saunders
Dragon Intuitive

Story in Subtext IMHO

Since I no longer expect anything from mankind except madness, meanness, and mendacity; egotism, cowardice, and self-delusion, I have stopped being a misanthrope. Irving Layton

Why People Are Like That Today: Perhaps context is everything.

We decry every human failing and very often in words much less clear and well organized than those that expressed the idea we just had to attack.

People tend to behave in the same fashion as they speak. People of few words engage in simple activity that shows itself to be either very appropriate or conversely inappropriate with very little middle ground. Verbose people tend to dissipate their energies but also exert a subtle moderating influence that can possibly have a meaningful impact. There are of course all the shades in between these extremes and everyone has a reason for anything they do, no matter how poorly stated.

What matters more is the story told in subtext by all this human action and interaction. Right now, it may be a crass sounding mish-mash of grunts and growls akin to the cries of barnyard animals, but when our collective experience grows and our shared capacity for reason evolves, might not some gold emerge from the dross? Might some medicine be derived from the bacterial filth of the cesspool? It’s happened before.

In My Humble Opinion. What’s yours?

Travis Saunders
Dragon Intuitive

Absorption Dysfunction

The advantage of the emotions is that they lead us astray.
Oscar Wilde

Why I Am Dysfunctional Today: I sometimes become intensely absorbed in some random train of thought.

This isn’t daydreaming. While I’m immersed in whatever mental tangent I am on, I lose touch with whatever my current reality is to the point that I don’t properly react to what’s going on around me. If it were daydreaming, I might potentially stumble along some train of novel ideation, but no… It’s just the same old beaten down obsessions. This can go on until I’m really sick of my own company.

People do tend to go on about self-esteem, but it’s only been in these moments of self revulsion that I have had the opportunity to reconnect with something more real and genuine than the noise in my head.

I tend to run off at the mouth in social situations, but when I get bored of my nonsense, it’s then that I really listen to other people. If nothing ever disturbed me or moved me to emotion, I fear my life would degenerate into an empty narcissistic mess. Even if this describes everyone’s life, isn’t it nice to have variety?

That‘s my dysfunctional self. What’s yours?

Travis Saunders
Dragon Intuitive

Distortion Dysfunction

I know I’m paranoid; I’ve made a career out of it. Thom Yorke

Why I Am Dysfunctional Today: I would like to say that I perceive reality clearly. I would like to say that I have learned something useful from every one of my mistakes. I can not honestly say these things.

I am intimately familiar with error. Being as detail oriented as I am, there isn’t a single activity that is without bugs… not in my experience. Many people are afraid of those naturally occurring creepy crawlies that form a vital component of our ecological health, but they pay no mind to the little absences of thought that infest their perception of the so called real world and accumulate until your consciousness is filled with distortion like a roaches nest is saturated in waste. I’m a bit of a meme-aphobe. Those little elements of culture and communication that others seem to thrive on, often just seem like offerings of various foods, each in different states of decay.

These are a couple of my hang-ups and they each create what are sometimes serious distortions in my perception and behaviour. I guess it’s like they say, remove the timber from your own eye before trying to remove the cinder from your neighbours.

That‘s my dysfunctional self. What’s yours?

Travis Saunders
Dragon Intuitive

Painful Dysfunction

I believe that everybody comes from pain and a certain amount of dysfunction. Mariel Hemingway

Why I Am Dysfunctional Today: Life is stress. Learning is the acquisition of methods to cope with stress.

I myself gain these skills slowly. Like everybody else, I take in a situation and then feel like I know what this all means to me. When this first impression is wrong, that leads to distress. For myself, this can go on repeating ad nauseum because those little cobwebs of nerves in my brain won’t really update until something has gotten on my last nerve, as they say. This makes me a detailed oriented person, perhaps obsessively so.

By focusing on the little details of a situation, I can get through it more steadily and reliably. This also means I become really intimate with poor thought habits. On the other hand, it also means I can get to know quality thought patterns as well. They both linger long in my head and interact with each other like the waves crashing on the shore.

I sometimes envy peoples changeable nature, but I guess we all get there in time. Inevitably, I will catch up…

That‘s my dysfunctional self. What’s yours?

Travis Saunders
Dragon Intuitive