First aid for the newly awakened. You cannot go back. The mystics have a saying. Once having seen the unseen country, you cannot unsee it. You will have to accept that your only way is forward. When you discover some part of your life doesn’t make sense anymore, it’s just because your mind has cleared, and it didn’t actually make sense to you in the first place. It can happen suddenly or more gradually.
It is in your best interests to let it grow and flourish. Let your awareness move right up along side your normal daily experience.
“Follow then the shining ones, the wise, the awakened, the loving, for they know how to work and forbear.” Buddha (Hindu Prince Gautama Siddharta, the founder of Buddhism, 563-483 B.C.)
“The darkness of ignorance has been dispelled, and my mind has been awakened; within the home of my inner being, I have found the genuine article.” Sri Guru Granth Sahib
“No human being ever learns to live until he has awakened to the dormant powers within him” William James (American Philosopher and Psychologist, leader of the philosophical movement of Pragmatism, 1842-1910)