Any subtle feeling you experience… It’s not invalid. Treat it as natural and a real part of the world, and you will not go insane.
On the topic of the deliberately created moment, as I said earlier, you don’t have wisdom, wisdom has you. When you realize this, you realize how those insight moments arise, and can deliberately change not the world … but yourself.
“e homai ka ‘ike mai luna mai e” That is a line to call for that insight moment. That line says: e homai… oh cause it to happen directly, ka ‘ike … the insight, the wisdom, the knowing, mai luna mai e… mai is the totally important concept here as it is indicating a direction to place the insight, mai is direct passage to the inner ness of a person… luna means and infers a dependence on something above or beyond you.
Oh yes, just raw determination can cause such a moment as well as a willing intention. It’s like insight knows when you are inviting it. The great wisdom that can “have you”, but nothing is dictated to you. The wisdom is given freely whether I’m communing with Naberius or a Buddhist is meditating before a golden Buddha. It’s basically the same. It’s that you are open to seeing the world as it is that makes the wisdom enter in.
“ua loa’a au i ka ‘ike” The wisdom has taken me. “ua loa’a no ho’i au i ka ma’i” The sickness has taken me. I don’t get sick. I don’t get inspired. They come and get me, and they come and get me from a variety of sources. Sickness from a negative imbalance.
We are talking about transition, and I have gotten to deliberately creating decisive moments. With wisdom you see your substance and the substance of the world itself.
The rituals can do just that, like Sufi dancing or meditating? Those do, but only with intent. The dervishes pray in a sense almost constantly. So when they dance it breaks the prayer and lets their meditations take a new form.
My point is that just as your life path has been directed by those “accidents” of circumstance making a mark on your being, you can come to understand what those mean, what any that could happen would mean, and have them cease to be accidents. Deliberately choose to have a decisive moment. This is what “seekers” are hunting, and what “masters” create, but being a seeker has its place also. The Heyoka created those moments for their tribe daily.
There’s a seeker born every moment? And they die just as quickly, giving birth to a master. At any moment Samadhi can strike.
Your thoughts are welcome. Be well friends.