There is stillness in the world and there is stillness in the mind. They echo each other. The observer and the observed.
Painting the self image is discovering the spirit.
Throughout your life your experiences have had a common theme. You likely ignored it because it just didn’t seem to make sense, and then ignored it because it began to make you feel uncomfortable, even threatened. The theme is actually the mirror image of your self image. It’s why you developed a self image, you had to.
Anyone want to share their self image with me simply? Just how you see yourself?
I see myself as tired. I mean functionally, not momentarily. Your viewing point.
Productive and in charge. Shall I go into her actual spirit?
Sensual and impulsive. She has developed her self image as a way to cope with what disturbs her most about her life. She is easily distracted, fascinated at heart, and all her most distressing moments came because she gave into that. She felt she had lost her mind because she took the bait even when she didn’t see the benefit in it. Have you escaped your spirit?
No. I will perhaps go into what do do with this later. Painting or make up never solves the problems. It can just show them clearly.
I used to see myself as having infinite potential…now I see myself as Sisyphus. Your self image hasn’t changed. This is why you see yourself as Sisyphus, and in general, no one changes their self image. They adopted it as a way of dealing with a problem. You crave focus. You seek purpose and meaning, but every time someone seemed to offer an answer, pretended to have a use for you, it proved to be otherwise and you resent it. You want a quest. You want to champion someone, and this has touched on every problem you have ever had, hasn’t it?
Possibly. Have you ever gotten in trouble when you stayed out of other peoples problems?
I don’t think so. I have. For some reason when I stay out of other peoples problems, it makes me seem like a problem, suspicious. People start trying to fix me or remove me. It’s when I go into helper mode, when I start talking freely that people lose interest in me, stop interfering in what I do or even pretending like they understand it. They even start asking me to stop explaining it. Strange maybe?
If it’s what works for you. It doesn’t work for me. It kind of distresses me.
I hope this was somehow useful, or maybe interesting at least.
Your thoughts are welcome. Till next time my friends, kindred spirits, be well.