To the degree that you defer to the wisdom of this life that brought someone so amazing as you into being, accept that you are meant to be, and feel, and have desires, and take actions according to the dictates of your heart.
The future is an assumption of linear advancement. It is a global advancement. Future is modeled thinking. Time flows in waves as does space.
“Global” is in the geometric sense. Consider a wave pattern, the preponderance of circles. The diagram of the golden mean and how it manifests, but you leave a legacy. The energy is retained, none is lost. Reaction is conversion of initial cause, a balancing. We exist as points of awareness in cosmic consciousness. Awareness is what might be called the individual, the soul, the I am. Consciousness is the field in which we play.
The soul arose as a function of the cosmic will. I don’t necessarily like these words, but hopefully they serve. For infinity to actualize, individuation is necessary. Paradox is a function of infinity manifesting. It cannot be a single I, so it spawns many. Many within the one.
You are infinite and thus manifestation. You don’t manifest what you want as something other than you. You manifest you.
The soul consciousness, that which lives and exists beyond space and time, is really the soul, and space and time are the manifest. In explicit reality, the explicit reality arises from the implicit state of potential energy. There was something. A movement in the great consciousness or the great spirit that spawned us all. A great idea, but we can see in part that our individuated mind cannot encompass in total, and do see. This is why dreams seem to have a regulatory factor. It is the basis of intuitive guidance. When we move and do not know why, often we learn why and the reason seems to outstrip the performance of our own minds. But the force that sometimes guides us, often when we are distressed and for the moment incapable of being “wilful”, doesn’t work against itself. We are part of it, so when we deny it, ignore it, it creates an internal and very corrosive dissonance. Disharmony and destruction on levels we see and levels that many don’t see. There is no such thing as absolute destruction, but there is entropy. Growing disorder brought about in the physics model by heat… reactivity… over activity.
Meditation can bring us a state of greater cohesion. Sort of like the biological photo repair effect. This fixes rad poisoning if isolation is possible. We can come back into harmony with that first force. You feel it all the time. You don’t recognize it maybe because it feels too normal, too like yourself. Our minds seek objects, externals. Things get backwards and thus we try to conquer by force using heuristic thinking and destructive technology. We divide before we know the natural divisions, and then wonder why reality seems to bleed and decay.
We feel threatened. We are our own threat. The surgeon mind is very messy, sloppy, but what is hurting can heal. Hurting frequently does heal when it is in harmony with the greater whole.
Your thoughts are welcome. Be well friends.