To the degree that you defer to the wisdom of this life that brought someone so amazing as you into being, accept that you are meant to be, and feel, and have desires, and take actions according to the dictates of your heart.
Let me guess. You like a whole and healthy world, but you do not like the order that people put commonly on it. You have always felt you had an instinct for how things would be healthy and strong, even happy, and have been very concerned about happiness in general. Likely enjoy animals a great deal, and feel very much at home in natural surroundings where “people” aren’t telling you what to do. You have likely noticed the acceptance in nature that humans don’t practice.
You likely have a sense of order though you don’t like human rules, and can sense when this order is off. When it seems something is making the world “unhappy”, and this connection is very important to you. It doesn’t really have anything to do with your personal “thinking.” It is more of a sense.
When you aren’t distracted do you get a feeling like the natural world loves you? Yes, I think so.
Ok, I mean no offence, but I conclude you are light oriented. I was not describing my own workings. Do you feel like this light oriented idea is something you could work with?
Yes, though I need to find a starting point. Actually your concern for the world, so basically this is the starting point. Realizing this is true about yourself and intentionally tuning in.
There is something you could do, but maybe didn’t know you could. You have a green thumb, yes? Good with plants? Notice you feel something whenever you interact with them?
I feel their energy for sure. Ok, it’s not just their energy. It’s a mix of theirs and yours, and it meshes really well, no?
I do talk to them. And feel an acknowledgment from them? Yes, though I am still learning about how to best care for them. Naturally, you are human and they plant, but this is my point. You sense signals from the world. You can feel and create that energy you have with the plants, and heal / take care of the place you sense the signal from. Make it stronger so the harm will be less.
If I put it this way, I feel cold in a space with no plants or grass or anything. Yes, and disoriented no? You can get confused?
But if you stick a pot of pansies on the ground I feel much more grounded myself. You read the light coming off those things. It guides or can guide you. Do you feel the truth of my words and see the use in these suggestions? Would want to claim this way as your own?
They are things I have had swimming around in my head for a long time. I think it already is my own. Perhaps I confirm a truth of yours then. Identifying it, you just have to choose to use it.
Soft light. Never harsh or forceful. This is light. Darkness mirrors it and operates the other side of creation.
Your thoughts are welcome. Be well friends.