The alienation of sudden death tends to warp the mind of the recently departed. The desire for the life they lost is heartbreaking, maddening even.
Let me describe another God. This God is no ones personal God.
Life in all its forms. Life so vibrant that it can transcend any pain. Life so infinite that it can manifest in any behaviour. Life so loving that it can embrace any pattern and heal everything. Life so wise it can allow for all potential to play out so seamlessly that nothing breaks anything else. That all things have the freedom of “self” in the face of everything else, and a rock can be something other than a tree.
Is there anything more Godlike than this? Does your God embrace this spirit or deny it? What would your God look like if it could be bathed in even a little bit of this light?
I would say mine is gearing towards embracing, which is why it likes Reflection Island. If so, I am very pleased. But it still has a ways to go. Oh, naturally, and you need not disrespect your God by pushing it. Just understand its will.
“In the beginning God said, let there be light.” For God’s first act of creation, it separated the firmament from the firmament, heaven from heaven. But one heaven didn’t stop being heaven just because it was set apart. Your heaven will forever be connected to the heaven of the other. Your heaven connected to my heaven. It’s connected here on earth. The one unity is here now, but people deny it because they deny the light of heaven. They deny it in seeking “righteousness” over “grace”. You cannot have both, and you cannot have righteousness at all, except by grace.
To the degree that you defer to the wisdom of this life that brought someone so amazing as you into being, accept that you are meant to be, and feel, and have desires, and take actions according to the dictates of your heart.
Your thoughts are welcome. Be well friends.