We are not free of darker feelings and views just because we espouse a spiritual view or lifestyle.
How can one to their own self be true? You can sit. At least for moments you can sit and practice non-doing. You can let things go for moments, and as you do this repeatedly the insight gained carries on. You begin to really understand; ‘I’m doing this, I am not this’, or ‘I see this, I am not this’.
When I despair I laugh loud and long. I am so well acquainted with despair I can’t take it seriously. When I am judged I laugh. The judgments are so out of synch with raw experience in communication or just my engagement with life, it’s like someone is calling me something totally random. They might as well call me a rock, or a cloud, it’s all the same.
It’s a crime that our society considers loneliness inevitable and just accepts it. If society is right, then why aren’t you happy? It’s a simple question. The truth always empowers, so if you have the truth why do you feel limited? We buy into the story, telling ourselves it will make us stronger. The toughest human beings are in a grave. They call that state of being rigor mortis.
Happiness is a byproduct of right living. I cannot think my way to good living, but rather live my way to good thinking? Happiness precedes right living. You can live your way to good thinking, but you can’t chase and ever gain happiness. People who chase people are the loneliest people in the world, are they not?
Feeling lonely to me is in two parts. The first is a general one when you don’t fit, but also I get sudden deep loneliness that reaches right to the soul which doesn’t seem to be satisfied. Oh, indeed. Recognition of a deep seated personal rejection can be powerful.
Is this where the deep loneliness can come from? It’s sort of simple, and as with many things simple it’s hard as hell. People will get you when you get you, and you will get you only when you let it happen. You aren’t what you want to be, you are what you are. But when you can see that you are what you are, then your actions become informed. It becomes your first chance to move toward what you want to be. No matter what, you have to start where you are.
Just as your realize it’s changed you begin moving forward. The most powerful, most real insights, don’t come from any process of deduction. Deduction is exactly that, a selective blindness so you won’t be distracted. Realization is the source of all real wisdom.
Yet we all must walk alone at times? Alone, but not lonely.
Your thoughts are welcome. Be well friends.