Not having what you want won’t make you saintly. If you’re damned if you do, and damned if you don’t, you might as well go ahead.
To take depression somewhere useful… A plant grows from its roots. We grow from that lowest of our emotional points, but we can grow. If the forces we choose for ourselves are too harsh, we grow twisted, like a blighted tree. But if we grow from our inner game, we will grow in the true way that is meant for us.
Ever notice that children will just sing or drum or play pretend without really intending anything by it? They don’t even have to be taught. Left to their own devices they just find something to do, and the defining factor is joy. It is fun and happiness at being themselves. We all do still have that. We have just ignored it.
Growth isn’t playing simple games your whole life. Growth would have been continuing to play and letting that grow in depth and range with our experience. We don’t as adults have to all go play hide and seek to be wise, but we do need to understand that we can choose that if we want, and realize that we have countless options and even ways of elaborating on that.
We can choose based on what comes naturally to us. Some children don’t play chase games, but sing all day long. Some children build things from sticks and mud. Others don’t try to build anything, but instead draw lines in the dirt. They are all just playing. No game better than any other, but some games are better for them personally. When they share their games with their friends, then everyone’s play is enriched. They can grow from that. What would this be if our adult world didn’t cut itself off from these roots?
A lot more fun. Peaceful. Perhaps more sane as well. Enlightened.
So about depression in summary. You don’t have to go backward, but do it if you really want to in time or space. Likewise, you don’t have to go forward, but do it if you feel drawn forward. If the way forward feels healthy and whole and holy.
You can even go sideways. I like going sideways myself. I do it when, though I know a thing, I ask someone else anyway just to see what they will say about it. This makes for a fuller moment. I like my moments that way. It isn’t just about me in the sideways moment. It’s about me and you also, and on any given day, you can play Ring Around The Rosie. Go all the directions, and fall down at the end of the day when it’s time for bed. Would that be so bad, really?
When you don’t know about a choice, play the Hokie Pokie. Put your right foot in, then take it back out again. That is ok to do. This is why laughter is healing, but laughter is not an idea. It’s not a sound you make with your voice, though it can include that.
Thoughts about depression? Feet! It is indeed all about feet. [Contemplates the holy holey socks.]
I am going to go play a different game now. Enjoy your play my friends. Take care, take fair, and carnival too.
Your thoughts are welcome. Be well friends.