I am considered autistic. It makes me a natural nihilist, and I have always been a negative thinker. The funny thing is, I tried with all my might not to be. This drove me into a deep depression, and the more I tried to understand the world as I was told it was, and the “truths” I was told would make me happy, the worse I got. The more I tried to put my natural thinking tendencies behind me, the more they got in my face.

How that changed was in this realization, and it didn’t come easy. For all my dark nihilism, I was actually seeing things, truths. As I sometimes say, stars are most visible at night. There was no solution for me in what they felt was best for me, but when I accepted myself, and my own mind for what it was… Well, I felt whole. I’m not perfect at this, but sometimes “fixing” yourself is actually breaking yourself.

Seeing the need to fix is the illusion? Yes. We aren’t machines, and spirits don’t break things, and aren’t ever permanently broken.

There’s no such thing as a perfect human being. Actually, I would disagree. You are perfectly you. I am perfectly Travis.

That’s scary. The idea of perfect is scary. We are what we are supposed to be. The literal meaning of perfect is actually illogical.

Mary Poppins wasn’t conceited? “Practically perfect in every way.” No Mary Poppins wasn’t conceited, and taught the kids to accept themselves.

Perfect = without flaw? Flaw is a subjective evaluation. It is basically a prejudice. Either nature is all flaws, or no flaws, and either way it means the same thing. If the laws of physics favoured stability what would happen to us? We would not be well off, to say the least. We would have never formed at all. Reality is a pretty tightly functioning system. There is no “flaw”, no “wrong”, no “enemy” anywhere. Not in fact, and people do put a lot of stock in what they declare are literal facts.

Your thoughts are welcome. Be well friends.

Travis Saunders
Dragon Intuitive
~science,mysticism,spirituality~