If you are feeling lonely, it’s because you don’t feel present as what you are, or accepted for what you are.
I’m pleased I kept my chest trouble under control during class.
Your chest trouble? In my efforts to integrate the function of my hippocampus with my more conscious brain, I accidentally cross wired my attentional control with my autonomic rhythms. So when I concentrate, my bodies natural rhythms go into overdrive and it feels like everything is labouring too much. I can control it, but normally there needs to be a partitioning.
Don’t hurt yourself, please. Oh, I won’t hurt myself. I do have a frustrating problem though. I am working on using a form of electromagnetic resonance coupled with biochemical cellular control to change this. There is a specialized type of neuron in the brain, common enough in neurotypical types, but uncommon in people like me. It serves one purpose, to serve as a flood gate between the various regions of the brain so that one of the brains processes doesn’t get confused for another. My own have always blurred into each other, but my efforts at integration have made it a bit worse.
I am not even trying to “cure” myself. As much as I see many desirable traits in the naturally predominant brain, there are just as many problems. Problems I don’t want to contend with. It’s just frustrating to finesse the process in such a way as to accomplish my goal and not wrinkle the rice paper, so to speak, in the process.
To make it a bit more clear, your brains have a skeleton that gives them strength and structure. A well evolved ability to cope with their environment. My own brain is more like a jelly fish, or a soft shelled invertebrate. I intend to change that.
Sound too weird? Crazy?
I have faith you can do it.
Did the previous information make me sound like a loon?
No more than usual. Honestly, do I just sound like a loon? Am I an entertaining weirdo? No substance to them? No understanding displayed?
I really like all the concepts you talk about. I don’t know how your brain works, but if you say you can adjust it, then I trust you are doing something. There are many examples of monks who can control their autonomic functions, so I know it’s possible. There is a man in Denmark, I think, who can keep his body temperature up while encased in ice for an hour and shows no effects when infected with a virus that makes people shiver.
I don’t think people would keep listening if they really found it crazy. People listen to a lot of weird stuff. This is my primary concern. It’s the reason I am hesitant at all to keep doing classes. I would have kept all this nonsense to myself. I had quite enough of being laughed at early in my life.
Well, thank you for considering my questions. I just wonder why I am doing what I am doing, and why the hell I am asked to do it. It’s not a worry. I guess I just want to know why there is any interest at all.
I may just be an unstructured weirdo who for some mysterious reason interests people, but I have come to be able to read the structure in others. Ignoring all the social mess, it’s pretty reliably predictive. I just get lost with that when I become emotionally involved.
Your thoughts are welcome. Be well friends.