To the degree that you defer to the wisdom of this life that brought someone so amazing as you into being, accept that you are meant to be, and feel, and have desires, and take actions according to the dictates of your heart.
A friend of mine mentioned that some physicists reject the concept of time now. They have solid reasons for doing so. Time exists only as a system of complimentary relationships. Yesterdays stand apart from tomorrow because the circumstances of yesterday differ from those that are forming today, that then actualize as tomorrow.
If you make time more multi-dimensional, then morphic fields can be self creating, can’t they? Morphic fields are memory.
So time is perfect as it’s only complimentary? Yes, and is why we see all things in the filter of time.
Time filters it so we can see the perfection in things? Yes, indeed.
I find it impossible to conceive of anything without time, and I have tried. How could there be movement? All movement, as we perceive it in time space, is a change of the personal potential or personal morphic field. You may perceive yourself to have gone from your living room to your kitchen, but in fact you have only changed your state of being from living room to kitchen, and you changed it in the same way you change non-spatial parameters. There is no difference.
I’m thinking, does this mean a mathematician can have a perfect circle, but no one can have a perfect date? Excellent, but actually it would mean the opposite. The perfect date is possible because the other is present in the event, but the principles that let the mathematician express the perfect circle do not actualize in reality.
The so called perfect circle always feels wrong. Yes. This is why the golden ratio is so persistent a factor in living structures.
If it’s not too obnoxious (if so my apologies), I will offer something from my own experience. Proprioception doesn’t function appropriately in autism. My perception of where I am and even my awareness of my own body is limited. The way I can make intelligible sense of concepts like schedule and change of activity is based on my reference to changes of my personal state.
Another aspect of my personal condition is what is perceived as a failure to mature. I only have a very lose idea of how old I am. It has no real experiential reference for me, and although my memory is excellent I couldn’t tell you easily if the conversation took place a week ago or a year ago.
Your thoughts are welcome. Be well friends.