The spiritual darkness discussion group, at ‘One World, Many Paths’ in Second Life, was started because a lot of other spiritual groups bar people from talking about negative feelings, and tell them that if they would just be more spiritual they wouldn’t feel bad. We don’t do that here, and we let people share and discuss their darkness, and maybe we can learn something useful from it.
I have essentially been confined to my home for the last week. I was in bed for several days with the flu, and only yesterday had surgery on both legs and an arm. These things are not a big deal overall, but it is my growing nihilism that is a problem. So what moves this nihilism? I am not sure why I am being so nihilistic. Hmm, and it’s become a problem?
It is frustrating. It is not as though I am totally bored with nothing to do. It is that I am having trouble seeing the validity in doing what I am able to. “Why bother.” Today in particular has been awful as I have been alone. Well, this is a pretty down to earth nihilism. Ennui is absence of amusement or interest. I struggle with nihilism also, and I find it reveals a truth. The exoteric motivations tend to be empty. Intrinsic motivations are the best and longest lasting. I find that doing the things I normally enjoy, even when in deep nihilism, inspires a measure of humour.
I wouldn’t agree with an existentialist view myself. I do tend to speak on metaphysical things you know. 
But still, yes, meaning is internal, and nihilism can bring a clarity to reorient. Sometimes it’s good when nothing really intrigues us.
Striving for success and social status means you cannot let in misery. It’s almost a law of nature, and so that’s what we see in western culture (banning of misery). Oh yes, and then misery destroys people in alcoholism, mental illness and “going postal”, because it doesn’t go away. I have a friend from Poland who is always considering suicide. He is not poverty stricken, but apparently the social environment is rather hostile.
For me when I start to consider suicide, I tend to get into fight mode instead, and then go at it more instead of the first option. For me, when I considered it, I considered what moved me to it, and the act would be even more meaningless than the conditions that made me consider it. So since there is no point, I don’t.
There is a point. You offer yourself a better life if you are not happy with your current life, and with you the whole reality dies, because you won’t remember anything in your next life, and you can’t feel guilt for doing it. No, it goes with you. The pattern moves with you. For every action a consequence. Cause stays cause, and incarnation is effect.
That’s not true. It can’t be true. You can’t be judged for your current life in the next one. It’s perfectly unfair. Do you know any exceptions to cause and effect? Who says there is any fairness? It‘s a human conception that. Death is an event in the chain of cause and effect, and even if consciousness is not preserved there is still a memory of the event. There is no data is lost.
Death is the ultimate end of one’s existence. There is no existence after it in which you preserve your current life. Interesting assertion. Then when did your existence begin? When arbitrary combinations of matter came together in human genetic code?
Your thoughts are welcome. Be well friends.
Travis Saunders
Dragon Intuitive
~science,mysticism,spirituality~
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