The future is an ever shifting pageant of shadow puppets that darken as light shines more directly on them.
Can anyone share an experience of a repetitive pattern in their life?
Something we can’t stop doing? Or something that just seems to recur no matter what you do. Both work, but interpersonal.
I keep having trouble with contaminants in my environment. Hmm, ok, pollution sensitivity. You also likely have repeated “failure to communicate” type events as well, and a sense of progressive boredom even with every effort to be creative in your personal life.
With certain people, yes. This stems from a basic stance of ennui you have taken toward life in general. An all is fair view that most people see as being quite reasonable of you, but leads to things like chronic infection as well as increasing craving of things like coffee or cigarettes or alcohol. This not true?
Wine and recently food/sugar. As you keep “out of the game” this process will continue, but you choose to bow out of the game because you had one or more personal events that made you feel like your personal goals or agendas were impossible or inappropriate somehow. Is this so? Yes.
This pattern doesn’t just occur with you. Each of these patterns flows like a tide through our world. Sweeping those who are in tune with it along with it. Some event tides are wholesome and advance life, and those whose focus sets them up to surf those seem to progress even without obvious effort.
Share something about yourself, anything you like. Angels. Ok. You are fundamentally an empathic person, but you have also run afoul of people who seem deliberately hostile to what you felt were the basic human values that make life worth while. You will not stoop voluntarily to imitation of the callous behaviour that hurts you and others so much, but you likely haven’t yet found an avenue by which you can begin to change the toxic situations your repeatedly find yourself in. You never feel like a martyr, but you feel anxiety for those people who seem so innocent of wrong doing but suffer anyway. Are you at the hands off stage yet, or do you still try to finesse things? Reason with people, things like that? It is possible I am mistaken. Sometimes I really need a couple of points to examine as the force behind it arises from a duet or even a concert of elements.
Your thoughts are welcome. Be well friends.